很久没有这种复杂的心情了...
最近被-友情- 搞得我很烦 ~ 其实我真的不知道该怎么做他们才会不会在那边说三道四
我是一个很敏感的人~别人不喜欢我，我大多能轻易的感觉出来...
朋友在一起是互相迁就，容忍和包容的~毕竟每个人的生活方式都不同，不可能每个人的习惯和脾气都会一样... 这是我个人认为的 T.T
现在朋友给我的感觉是~以ladies first,为ladies付出 - 只要你不这么做，你就会被排挤 =.=
我承认我不是一个好人，我是一个平凡的人，有着平凡人一般的自私 ...可是这就是我！ 我不喜欢假装去扮一个不是我自己的好人，我做不到！
可能身边的男士都那么不介意，不计较...所以凸现了我是一个很自私的人把~
可是 ... 我真得很想告诉你们,我们出身不同，家庭背景不同，父母收入不同
我的父母只是靠自己双手双脚来养活我的~每个月靠那微薄的收入来供一个还在读书的4兄妹的家庭
父母是商人兼小贩，我知道他们的辛苦... 所以都会尽量自己找part time来供自己的开销~ 可是这一切的一切，看在别人的眼里...却是其他回事...
上个月很幸运的找到一份拍广告的part time,友人听了就在那边半讽刺地说：“有人要去当明星咯。” T.T
无端端这样被人踩了一下~真的很不爽！！！
它们出生时是含着金汤匙；我不是！
自小要什么都尽量靠自己~ 要去云顶，自己组团。要去马六甲，自己组团。form1到form5~坐过将近5份不同的工 ...
真得有点累了~
虽然我不善于沟通~可是我所做的一切一切并没有对你们不利
6月考试就要来了~ 希望这个sem快点过 ... 然后这一切的一切就可以重新再来了！
=）
Friday, April 25, 2008
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Go off from leisure ~
finally ~ finally i reach my sweet home and have a rest
since ..
19april went to penanG, i had not really have a good rest. Drive from PJ to Penang all the waY ... went go visit 6million houses =.= ... eat all the penang famous food ..
2othapril drive back from penang to PJ at the afternoon. I had really tired ~ although i enjoy the journey
20th april ~ depart to Pulay RedanG by Bus at 10pm ...
21th april I can't really have a rest on the bus T.T
this was make me so tired during the trip at Pulau Redang ~ the first day i was enjoy with playing around with friends at beach side ~
22th april ~ felt that i was get sick T.T but i try to cope with the timetable set by the resort which is went for snorkeling at the morning at marine park ~ this was the first time i so near with all the fish ... hahax.
at the afternoon after back from snorkeling and lunch~i decide to have a rest to avoid really get sick @.@
on the evening, this was the most enjoy moment to me. I played beach volleyball^^ I was so enjoy the game and sweat a lot
Last night at Pulau redanG, me and gang went for free karaoke provide by the resort ...
23th april ~ woke up at the early morning - 6.30am. Pack on all the shirt and belonging prepare to leave :'(
8am - after a heavy breakfast =p ... we went to the speed boat prepare by RedanG Bay Resort .. the sky was start crying ...
it was represent my feeling in my heart ... A memorable trip was end so fast ~
24th april ~ writing this post at hometown - BANTING^^
since ..
19april went to penanG, i had not really have a good rest. Drive from PJ to Penang all the waY ... went go visit 6million houses =.= ... eat all the penang famous food ..
2othapril drive back from penang to PJ at the afternoon. I had really tired ~ although i enjoy the journey
20th april ~ depart to Pulay RedanG by Bus at 10pm ...
21th april I can't really have a rest on the bus T.T
this was make me so tired during the trip at Pulau Redang ~ the first day i was enjoy with playing around with friends at beach side ~
22th april ~ felt that i was get sick T.T but i try to cope with the timetable set by the resort which is went for snorkeling at the morning at marine park ~ this was the first time i so near with all the fish ... hahax.
at the afternoon after back from snorkeling and lunch~i decide to have a rest to avoid really get sick @.@
on the evening, this was the most enjoy moment to me. I played beach volleyball^^ I was so enjoy the game and sweat a lot
Last night at Pulau redanG, me and gang went for free karaoke provide by the resort ...
23th april ~ woke up at the early morning - 6.30am. Pack on all the shirt and belonging prepare to leave :'(
8am - after a heavy breakfast =p ... we went to the speed boat prepare by RedanG Bay Resort .. the sky was start crying ...
it was represent my feeling in my heart ... A memorable trip was end so fast ~
24th april ~ writing this post at hometown - BANTING^^
Thursday, April 17, 2008
KumA~kuma ... where are you?
kuma ~ where are you???
you are missing during i was free .... hahax
i was enable to access to your bloG =.=
are you ok?
if you see this post ~ pls respond to me ya ... hahax^^
take care o my friend
you are missing during i was free .... hahax
i was enable to access to your bloG =.=
are you ok?
if you see this post ~ pls respond to me ya ... hahax^^
take care o my friend
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
我并不是一个100分的朋友~
朋友,很想在此对你们说声对不起!
因为我并不是一个尽责任的朋友~当你们需要我的帮忙时,可能我会忙着做功课,忙着读书,忙着做其他东西,而忽列了你们.
当我需要你们的安慰，你们的帮忙时...你们都会义不容辞的帮我。
感觉到自己真的忽列了很多身边的人 ... 对不起。
其实可能使自己懒惰的性格造就了今天不会关心他人的我吧…………
生命中起伏不定的状况好象开始稳定~一路看是顺利了很多，可是我内心还是很害怕…………害怕跌倒的那一天会到来。人家说跌过一次就不怕痛，但我并不认同。虽然跌过了几次，但我还是很怕会再跌到
每次听电台都会让我感触良多 T.T 很想写在这里和有缘人分享~可是我很懒惰
明天还有法语班~ so i stop here le ~ moody
因为我并不是一个尽责任的朋友~当你们需要我的帮忙时,可能我会忙着做功课,忙着读书,忙着做其他东西,而忽列了你们.
当我需要你们的安慰，你们的帮忙时...你们都会义不容辞的帮我。
感觉到自己真的忽列了很多身边的人 ... 对不起。
其实可能使自己懒惰的性格造就了今天不会关心他人的我吧…………
生命中起伏不定的状况好象开始稳定~一路看是顺利了很多，可是我内心还是很害怕…………害怕跌倒的那一天会到来。人家说跌过一次就不怕痛，但我并不认同。虽然跌过了几次，但我还是很怕会再跌到
每次听电台都会让我感触良多 T.T 很想写在这里和有缘人分享~可是我很懒惰
明天还有法语班~ so i stop here le ~ moody
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
终于~拍完了第一部广告^^
感觉好兴奋…………我终于在自己的工作经验的list里增加了新的项目^^
这种兴奋不是一些局外人可以明白的。这些局外人是要给一些
在13/4/08的一大清早我就起身了... 由于地点是在LOT 10~所以大概7am我就出发了咯。。。避免迟到。。。毕竟是第一次去做工吧... i mean new job T,T
一大早就冲忙忙的的赶去开工了~还没8点，agent就在那边一直call我催我了=.=
由于不是第一个shoot,所以只有先去化妆 @.@ 如果没错，这是我生平第一次化妆耶 T.T
就这样……一等二等……等到11am才轮到我的slot ,蛮累的说。
剧情是说我和朋友在cafe喝茶聊天~忽然间我的朋友唱起了astro"hua hee dai"的歌，我被他吓到八口中的饮料喷了出来，haha 然后一个坐轮椅的人也和我朋友一样，听到那首hokkien就可以站起来 T.T
这一take也拿了大概1小时左右。。。
就这样~一小时左右，我的工作基本上也完了，只是下午的时候到其它地点拍一个百人一起唱歌的镜头。
大概4点左右就结束了新工作^^
这拍摄的工作经验真的让我获益不浅，
这种兴奋不是一些局外人可以明白的。这些局外人是要给一些
在13/4/08的一大清早我就起身了... 由于地点是在LOT 10~所以大概7am我就出发了咯。。。避免迟到。。。毕竟是第一次去做工吧... i mean new job T,T
一大早就冲忙忙的的赶去开工了~还没8点，agent就在那边一直call我催我了=.=
由于不是第一个shoot,所以只有先去化妆 @.@ 如果没错，这是我生平第一次化妆耶 T.T
就这样……一等二等……等到11am才轮到我的slot ,蛮累的说。
剧情是说我和朋友在cafe喝茶聊天~忽然间我的朋友唱起了astro"hua hee dai"的歌，我被他吓到八口中的饮料喷了出来，haha 然后一个坐轮椅的人也和我朋友一样，听到那首hokkien就可以站起来 T.T
这一take也拿了大概1小时左右。。。
就这样~一小时左右，我的工作基本上也完了，只是下午的时候到其它地点拍一个百人一起唱歌的镜头。
大概4点左右就结束了新工作^^
这拍摄的工作经验真的让我获益不浅，
Monday, April 14, 2008
真的失望了...
有时会觉得，现在交朋友真的要付出很多。。。人家才会喜欢你，不会对你冷言冷语~
如果是这样，对于一个出生比较平穷...平时不是要什么有什么的我而言...我会选择做回自己！
一位比较穷，所以比较计较... 人家就会觉得你是个很计较的人。他们不会去明白你的苦衷，只会在你背后说你这样那样。
当你犯错一次，你就会像被判了死刑一样...永不超生！哪个罪名永远会被贴在你生上。
当他们几个人想做一件事时，如果我很累不像跟，他们又会觉得我不合群...
当有人对你比较好一点时，他们就会在那边又冷言冷语 =.=
觉得好像全世界的人做人都需要符合他们的生活方式~
可能我真的会比较成熟？ 认为读书比较重要，在考试是抱着数读... 人家又在那边说假勤劳
对于一个奖学金得主而言，我感受得到爸妈对我的期望有多高...得到社会出钱让我读书是多么的幸运... 我不像你们，各个家里都是承担得起在这种有素质兼昂贵的学院读书，我比你们懂赚钱的辛苦...所以不会像你们出手这么大方，小钱不那么计较。
可能是我太敏感了吧，所以一直都会觉得你们是这样想的。
可是，我也只不过是一个普通的人...我并不是一个会为了别人而改变自己生活的人。
总觉得做回自己就好 =
如果是这样，对于一个出生比较平穷...平时不是要什么有什么的我而言...我会选择做回自己！
一位比较穷，所以比较计较... 人家就会觉得你是个很计较的人。他们不会去明白你的苦衷，只会在你背后说你这样那样。
当你犯错一次，你就会像被判了死刑一样...永不超生！哪个罪名永远会被贴在你生上。
当他们几个人想做一件事时，如果我很累不像跟，他们又会觉得我不合群...
当有人对你比较好一点时，他们就会在那边又冷言冷语 =.=
觉得好像全世界的人做人都需要符合他们的生活方式~
可能我真的会比较成熟？ 认为读书比较重要，在考试是抱着数读... 人家又在那边说假勤劳
对于一个奖学金得主而言，我感受得到爸妈对我的期望有多高...得到社会出钱让我读书是多么的幸运... 我不像你们，各个家里都是承担得起在这种有素质兼昂贵的学院读书，我比你们懂赚钱的辛苦...所以不会像你们出手这么大方，小钱不那么计较。
可能是我太敏感了吧，所以一直都会觉得你们是这样想的。
可是，我也只不过是一个普通的人...我并不是一个会为了别人而改变自己生活的人。
总觉得做回自己就好 =
Friday, April 11, 2008
拍广告^^
wow... this is the first time i 拍广告leh ... gan jeong leh =p
well ... this is the astro "hua hee dai" advertisement =.=
maybe few month later u guys can see me in the tv xD hahax
although is this sunday only is the actual shoot . hhehe
2moro is moral exam @.@ i haven't start preparing leh ... haiz ...
so ... stop now ^^
well ... this is the astro "hua hee dai" advertisement =.=
maybe few month later u guys can see me in the tv xD hahax
although is this sunday only is the actual shoot . hhehe
2moro is moral exam @.@ i haven't start preparing leh ... haiz ...
so ... stop now ^^
Saturday, April 5, 2008
Busy with homework leh ~
Nowadays, i was so so so busy with my homework
=(
although this was not the first time busy like this, but i had felt tired with it ...
assignment : hotel, restaurant, french
PDP essay : still left around 5 ~6 :'(
so stress man ... although this was my second semester, but i really don't know i can cope with this course or not T.T
How to over come all this stress? hehe
actually i had plan at the very beginning =p
20april i will go to pulaU reDang xD hahax
hope my trip will full with happiness xD
Aza azA fighting now !!! finish all homework !!! ^^
=(
although this was not the first time busy like this, but i had felt tired with it ...
assignment : hotel, restaurant, french
PDP essay : still left around 5 ~6 :'(
so stress man ... although this was my second semester, but i really don't know i can cope with this course or not T.T
How to over come all this stress? hehe
actually i had plan at the very beginning =p
20april i will go to pulaU reDang xD hahax
hope my trip will full with happiness xD
Aza azA fighting now !!! finish all homework !!! ^^
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