Tuesday, April 27, 2010

如果我们走到了分手的那一天,我怎么办,你怎么办?


从一开始的互不熟悉,到如今的彼此了解;
从一开始浅薄的想念,到如今深深的眷恋;
从最初很在意在你面前的形象,到现在的毫无顾忌;
从当初的不知道该怎么爱你,到现在不知道该如何分离。
一路走来,经历了很多,我们也都付出了很多。

如果.....
如果我们真的分手,
你会怎样?
如果我们分手了,
我一定会感到很寂寞无助,
耍性子闹脾气的时候会感到闷得慌,
电话短信都不知道该发给谁。

如果我们分手了,
我一定会恨自己的自以为是,
原本总以为,
不管我们交错多少次,
总可以再找到时间地点,
重新牵起彼此的手,
可却只是自己的一厢情愿罢了。

如果我们分手了,
在一起那些痛苦的记忆会无限缩小甚至蒸发,
而幸福的回忆却只会日益膨胀,
到最后甚至忘记为什么分手,
仅仅只是想你,
想你,
想你。

如果我们分手了,
就算删掉你的手机号码,
我一定还是能倒背如流,
在夜深人静的时候红着眼眶,
慢慢按下那些键,
却始终找不到理由拨出去,
即使你淡出我的生命,
却仍然占据我的记忆。

如果我们分手了,
我会把你送给我的东西,
写给我的文字,
统统藏起来,
然后在夜深人静的时候不断拿出又放好,
想看又不敢再碰触。

如果我们分手了,
我一定还是不会删掉那些照片,
摘掉那根红绳,
因为曾经的每一次争吵都让它们来来去去,
可是这一次如果我删了,
我delete了,
它们就不再回来了。

如果我们分手了,
我不想再看见你,
因为我害怕那时的你在我的眼前,
我还是想牵牵你,
抱抱你,
亲亲你,
但是我已经没有资格了。

如果我们分手了,
我还是想你和你做朋友,
这样在我想你的时候,
我可以想着还能找你,
虽然我也许并不会这么做。

如果我们分手了,
我一定会害怕出门,
因为无论到哪里,
都有我们的回忆,
背着我牵着我到处乱逛的你,
看着我流泪会陪我一起伤心的你,
陪着我发疯陪着我快乐的你,
几乎把所有的零花钱都花在我身上的你,
因为给我准备了惊喜而自己开心半天的你,
在凛冽的寒风又或者飘泊的雨中还是会等我的你,
因为我乱玩,乱吃东西,胡作非为而大发雷霆的你,
每一次都被我搞的崩溃却依旧每一次都原谅我包容我来找我
的 你。

遍地留下了自己的痕迹,
最后却跑掉的你。
如果, 如果
如果我们真的分手,
我一定不想的。

请记得,
如果我们分手了,
我还是等你的电话,
回你的短信,
在你需要我或是想见我的时候出现,
你是我的独家记忆,



一直在心底。

Monday, April 26, 2010

Singapore Education Trip

Gals VS Guys

GUYS
with little dear =)
UNIVERSAL
GROUP B

5days 3nights Singapore Education trip had gone ~~~

This was the first time I went to Singapore, and really eyes open for me XD "FINE country" is really different with our respective Country - Malaysia.


Although this trip is quite tiring but really saw lots of things and learned lots of things :)

Hope the next visit would be more relax and not be so rush as this time :)

Monday, April 19, 2010

人的一生有太多的框框
不能做这个 不能做那个
小时候所学到的 那些不能做的事情
长大后 却偏偏想去尝试一下
或许并没有想象中 像书本上说的那么严重
抽烟 喝酒 高谈阔论
其实也是一种享受
我 应该算是幸福的
至少我没有这些所谓的不良嗜好
但人嘛 总是好奇
所谓不良 也只是社会的基本看法
只要不过量 应该不是问题

发现自己处在一个不属于自己的世界
却没有感到害怕 无助~~~

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Swiss Student Culture Event






~Swiss student culture event~

This is the second project for MICE student :)

It was quite challenging as we need to communicate with student from Switzerland and almost all of them are elder than me. Their average age was 25 if i was not mistaken.

Although i had did my industrial training in Rasa Sayang Resort and facing with foreign guests, but this was totally different as we need to guide them for campus tour and they are not those elder uncle auntie which are more easier to serve? At least for me, those elder one are more easier to serve although sometimes they are quite stubborn, LOL

Its great to be trusted and in-charge for campus tour, this was quite challenging for me as I need to communicate and give instruction to my classmate in ENGLISH T.T


The next event will be BLOOD Donation on 14th MAY ~I think?

Hope everything can run smoothly :) Bonne nuit ~!

Saturday, April 17, 2010

感觉好虚~我开始分不清实和虚 ...

什么才是真的? 什么才是假的?

还是傻傻的过着虚世界的生活好比什么都知道结果换回来的只有痛苦~!

Thursday, April 15, 2010

minor dental "surgery" :(


just now went for dental treatment ~~~ sigh

I went in for treatment since 12.15pm and came out at 1.45pm :'( suffered inside with fear

the treatment was - 1 scaling and 5 filling :( too bad ... and it cost me RM 535.00 GOSH... damm expensive ... really sucking my blood till dry

Quite tired after the treatment as a really got a bad time inside the treatment room :(

Goodnitez World~ although now just 3pm ...

Miss you C.L =(

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

1/2 year ~




time flies ~ half year ~ or 365/2 = 182.5days , or 4380 hours we had been together.

still got 4days ~ but got the present on yesterday night from chicken little.

and hope we will be like what you wrote in the card :)

Nice and useful bottle ~~~ thanks a lot dear =)

Monday, April 12, 2010

wisdom teeth???


so many medicine need to finished :'( start feel fear with it ... cause i still need to go back this thursday :'(

if need an surgery ... don't know will cost me how much and how pain it would be ;"(


T.T why @.@ Y

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

时差 ...


真的有所谓的时差吗?

真的会慢一步吗?

真的要等到一切云过烟硝了才追得上?


只希望时差几分钟就好 ... ...

Friday, April 2, 2010

我 ... 是失败的。


请不要再给我重任了 ... 我是廖化 ... 只是小将一名。

我当不起大将军 :( 也不想当。

感觉自己就像两头不到岸的东西 ... 去左也不是,去右也不是。

就连想要的安慰也得不到 ...

我快要爆了!!!